jueves, enero 05, 2006

Death and the suddenness of eternity

I’ve been thinking of a few things. I was going to try writing this entry earlier, but decided I’d wait until after I got back from the funeral I attended this afternoon at Auburn.

I’ve been following the news with some interest these last few days, curious of the outcome concerning the coal mine accident in West Virginia, and how disappointing that must be for the 12 families or so that lost all their loved ones in that tragedy.

For some not aware or following the news, a few days ago, about 13 men were trapped when a coal mine collapsed after an explosion--if I understand correctly (I’m writing this entry without internet windows open to reference the articles I read). Last night a miscommunication happened and the families were told all but one person had survived, but apparently that was false and only one died. The thing that grips me is how many of these family members were to be found in a church praying and singing songs with a pastor while believing the best and that all the men who’d been missing for nearly 41 hours had survived and would be found alive.

I can only imagine how horrific it must have been for each of those individuals trapped in the mine. I read that they each only had an hour of oxygen that could be used in their oxygen masks, and that they would not possibly survive when their air supply ran out. I fail to recall exactly what the miscommunication was that happened, but it must have been just as horrifying to the family to find out the good news they had been given was in fact false and the opposite had happened--instead of the news that only one person had died, only one person had survived.

The statement I read that sent chills through me was one woman, upon hearing the news stating “there is no Lord!” after spending all that time presumably thanking Him when she thought her loved one (I think husband) was alive and not dead. It hurt to read someone blame God for their loss, but I understand this is a very real pain in such a time of emotional roller coasters like this incident. I’ve said recently how it grieves me when Christians are pessimistic, but I also would give leeway to someone who just lost their husband. But I also can’t stand the ability we all have to only trust Him when the going is easy.
I’m not going to slam any of those wives for their faith. No sir. I’m just contemplating the situation I’ve been following, because coinciding with it was the death of a neighbor here in Peterborough.

I’d delivered newspapers to the Wiggins, an older couple who lived up the street from me, for about 5 years in the mid 1990s. Halsey was well known in the neighborhood for the tall old fashion bike he’d ride around in during summertime, and as well as the back yard full of all sorts of interesting devices and belongings. It kinda reminded me of a junk yard, but was stuff he collected and was able to fix or make other things with.

In the warm weather, when I lived with my parents or was visiting them when I didn’t live there, you could almost always see Mr. Wiggins (that’s really how I knew him by) sitting on the front step having a beer and a cigarette and usually we’d wave to each other, but otherwise once I was older and no longer their paperboy I didn’t have much interaction with him other than those waves, unless we ran into each other at the convenience store or on the street or something like that.

At any rate I didn’t feel too good at all when I was leaving my parents’ house at 3 or so in the morning New Year’s Eve (I guess New Year’s Day technically) and I saw yellow police tape everywhere. I drove super slowly and prayed in the Spirit not knowing what I should pray or how, and just trusted God for safety and protection for them. I was disturbed for a while and forgot all about it until yesterday when I stopped by at Auburn and saw a hurse and several cars in the parking lot (unusual for a random weekday for there to be that many cars). I entered and asked the first person I saw in the foyer what was going on and was told they were setting up the church sanctuary for a visitation later in the night.

I got a knot in my stomach as I put two and two together in my mind realizing one of the Wiggins’ has clearly died, so I approached the article they had from yesterday’s paper on display by the entrance, and read more disappointing news—no horrifying news. Mr. Wiggins had died as a result of some kind of fire in his shed. I had more questions than answers about what all this meant. Investigators said the cause was unknown, and I didn’t recall the yard looking very drastically damaged as I drove by on New Year’s or today after the funeral on my way to my parents to say hi.

Apparently it happened early afternoon, and he was taken to the burn unit in Hamilton—a city of around half a million people two hours from where I live. He died there later that evening from his injuries—I believe they were burns. Judging from the closed casket this afternoon, I image he was burned pretty badly and that it wasn’t just smoke inhalation or that type of damage to the lungs. But it really turned my stomach just thinking about it. He was 66 years old. The church was packed, and no room in the parking lot for all the cars, but it was still sad. They lived in our neighborhood in that house for so long that a lot of people came from out of the woodwork to attend. People that knew him well or people that had some kind of acquaintance with him like myself---not very well, but he’d been a fixture in that neighborhood while I was growing up, and just his absence alone will change the makeup of Leahy’s lane. You would see him outdoors almost all the time, and now you won’t.

These incidents have all got me really thinking about eternity. Do our neighbors, co-workers, classmates, etc… have any guarantee of a tomorrow? Do we ourselves, believers or non-believers reading this? None of those coal-miners went to work that day believing they’d be crushed to death or burned alive and never see their loved ones again and suddenly be before the Lord for judgment. I don’t know if they were saved or how many, but with little warning they met before him sometime while trapped under there. Same with Halsey. He didn’t wake up on Saturday morning with any idea or awareness that that was his last day.

Are you ready to face Jesus if today was your last?

11 comentarios:

Matt Vella dijo...

I like your little counter of who is going to hell today. That must make you feel very good to see it going up!!! How very "Christian!!!!!!!1"...

Only, not so much.

Stevie B dijo...

Matt
Did you even read this very post writing your comment? I fail to see how you arrived at that conclusion of my motives.

Thanks for stopping by though.

mom dijo...

Very well written

Bakingfreak dijo...

i watched it on the news today.
It must be soo horrific to those people.


Anyways. You ara quite happy with your commentors lately huh?

Stevie B dijo...

Corianne

Haha. Yeah, I just love getting comments from people who don't even take the time to read any entries before giving me their opinion and assessment of my Christianity.

Pixellogo dijo...

Steve,
I just finished spending quite a bit of time reading your blog.
While I am a Christian by faith, I do agree, not all, with most of your thoughts.
By painful experience, I know full well how we, as human beings with all strenghts and weaknesses, will question everything and anything when faced with mental pain and anguish as these people did after such a terrible mistake by the officials. But I also know that those same people will ultimately find ease and consolation through their faith.
The reason I'm leaving a comment though is to give you a show of support for stating your thoughts based on your beliefs as openly as you've done. It is easy to get "branded" these days no matter what you believe or what political persuasion you follow and I found your candid thoughts and self-debate very refreshing. Good luck!

d dijo...

WEll, as you often write, one should be experiencing some resistance/persectuion if living out and sharing one's faith, so take it as a compliment. You're going to get such judgements from those who prefer to discuss the mundane or throw out the anti-conservative rhetoric.

Anyway, this story really rips me. I don't know, Steve, sorry to be so negative here, but really, on the face of it, did all their prayer and intercession really help change things? The results seem the same as if they had done nothing, and then on top of that, there was this cruel mistruth naively bantered about to give them fasle hope! One can be sure some were praising God and thanking him for hearing their prayers and interecession when in the end it seemed to do no good for 12 of those families. I'm quite sure there were some true believing believers there too, Baptist or otherwise.

I guess that the part that gets me--what little all that prayer and intercession form the fmailies and otehrs really accomplished! Teh reustls would have been pretty much the same if no one had prayed, so why bother?! And yet, I know God does move at times. I know I'm not God and can't begin to understand his ways and I know too the pat answers one could give--that we are all sinners, and God has given us free choice and all that. And yet, I know too that he says if we even have the faith the size of a mustard seed we can do great thigns. Surely, someone on the planet did, but it didn't do much good apparently?!

I've read some referring othe the survivor as being a miracle? but is it reall yhtat extraordianry? The odds are that someone could have live--barely--it's not liek he came jumping out of there or anything, nothing like Shadrack, Mesack and Abendigo--now that would be a miracle--seomthign truly extraorinary.

Sorry, to be so blunt and pessimistic here. I know you don't like that but I know too you value honesty. I would love to read a blog entry on all this maybe. All this too is based in part on how many times I read otehr beleivers blog entries for the simplest of things, like asking for direction ro money for food, and yey so often read how littel changes, even from thsoe who are most sincere and faithful. It's discourinaging and yet I know I've also seen God move in incredible ways too in the past. It's all leaves me thinking hmmmmmmm. Something doesn't resognate withthe trite answers one could give somehow. In the end we jsut have to trust him anyway, even when it seems to do no good.

Take care.

-duncan

Stevie B dijo...

Duncan,
I don't want to sound like a jerk, but this stuff, though gripping me, isn't something I'm motivated to write much of a blog entry on any time soon, and it's not to "avoid facing" anything you bring up. I guess I just have a different beginning point and perspective, understanding that us trying to figure out God's ways is like trying to get a fly to understand rocket science.

I beg to differ that the praying and intercession didn't accomplish anything because of my understanding of intercession involving a burden the Lord PUTS on us to pray out. It's easy to pray hard when we're immediately and suddenly affected by a tragedy, and I wouldn't chalk that up as necessarily the same thing as intercession, though not ruling it out either. I was not present for any of these prayer meetings in their church, so I don't know what went on or who prayed what.

Another thing to keep in mindis found in Luke 13:1-5:

Luk 13:1 There were some present at that very time who told him about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had mingled with their sacrifices.
Luk 13:2 And he answered them, "Do you think that these Galileans were worse sinners than all the other Galileans, because they suffered in this way?
Luk 13:3 No, I tell you; but unless you repent, you will all likewise perish.
Luk 13:4 Or those eighteen on whom the tower in Siloam fell and killed them: do you think that they were worse offenders than all the others who lived in Jerusalem?
Luk 13:5 No, I tell you; but unless you repent, you will all likewise perish."

Jesus answers a concern that was brought to Him about why something terrible happened to someone, and if you ask me, if I were the person asking the question I might not have left satisfied that he addressed it at all. But He did, and He knew what he was saying whether we get it or not. His response in v.3 and 5 "unless you repent, you will all likewise perish." is interesting. I only realized it now that when pondering the tragedy of the coal mine and the loss of Halsey Wiggins in the shed fire, that I was brought to thinking of eternity as a result and how short this life is and eternity is more improtant (if you see my last paragraph and appeal to put this into eternal perspective). Likewise, this is the direction Jesus takes this query here when possibly told this tragedy, and maybe he was even asked "why did this happen?"

Also, Revelation talks about the bowls of judgment being "prayers of the saints", and there's no telling yet how many "bowls were filled" by all this prayer and what the bowls were "meant to be poured out on." It's early yet, only days after the incident, and it's too early to tell what the Lord intends to do with the lives the enemy stole (or not, I realize it was an accident and life happens, it may not neccesarily be the devil, but I know HE is the devourer who seeks to kill and destory, and Christ came to bring life--the two job descriptions are kinda different now aren't they?).

I just heard of a movie coming out on the 20th of this month about the five missionaries who went to share the Gospel with an African tribe in a nation there during the 1950s, and they were killed seemingly mercilessly. The day of it, or the day after, it would be easy to ask or say "well look at their efforts, that was a waste, what is God doing/allowing?" But the wife of one of the missionaries forgave the tribe, went and lived with them for two years and won converts and saw their homicide rate drop 90%. I"m unfamiliar with the exact outcome beyond that until now, but here in 2005 there's this story to be told in a movie and their testimony and lives not only were NOT in vain, but are not done "accomplishing" something for the glory of God as who knows what this movie might accomplish, even when they're gone.

I'm not trying to be trite either, but remember, Jesus didn't look so powerful up there on that cross when his life was ended and he breathed his last, and even He asked his Father why he was forsaking Him--but we have the Book and the "continuing aftermath" of that incident in history--and even his disciples all went back to fishing and such in the days afterwards, but look out world when they found he was risen and they went around proclaiming it! But when He rose from the dead, EVERYTHING in the kingdom of darkness was dealt a blow--and I'm not just talking about a happy ending movie with all the characters clapping their hands and yelling "yay, he's alive"! But how did everything look to his closest of disciples for the couple of days between his death and the resurrection? Hopeful? No, they failed to realized the things he had said about himself in plain language about going to the cross--we too "fail to realize" a lot of things of God, and it takes us by surprise in good and bad ways.

I spent every Tuesday morning before school for most of a trimester in Charlotte, for a 27 year-old man dying of cancer, week after week, and then he eventually died. My last memory of spending time with him actually was watching the 2004 US election coverage until 2am. But here's the thing; YES it WAS a devastating loss, but I have no clue what I accomplished and the others praying accomplished. The Word of God "never returns void", right? as Isaiah 55 says? I know I sound like 'pie in the sky' as it is to people who won't even bother going after a healing in the first place, but man, my own life experienced a resolve to go harder for it and if anything just made me madder at the devil and I'm going to snatch as many of his victims in soul, spirit and body from the grips of hell as I can. Other people who volunteered at FIRE's healing rooms--yes, some got discouraged and have given up on bothering as a result of Jerry Shriver's death. But I refuse to be a person who walks by sight instead of faith, and in many ways "went deeper" as a result.

All I know is God is NEVER the problem. We're flies and he's a rocket scientist (but even that is not high praise enough of an analogy) trying to figure out his rocket-scientist ways with our tiny 'fly minds', and as a result come up with all these pseudo theological explanations. But we are more likely to be the ones wrong, not Him.

Anyway, I'm sure you think I'm spitting out trite stuff without answering anything, but I just wanted to piece some thoughts together since I am not motivated (as of yet) to write a "why do bad things happen to good people" type of blog entry. If you or anyone else reading this want to keep discussing it in my comments section here, feel free. I have lots of paperwork and things to file tomorrow, and an almost-complete newsletter to make copies of and mail (well we'll see what gets done), and have a busy day lined up even if Staffing Connection doesn't call and put me to work, so don't take it personally if I don't answer soon (or even at all) on this one.

Blessings.

Steve

d dijo...

Well, you already have Steve! Good answer..and no, not trie at all! You've given a lot of meat to chew on. .Thanks for taking the time with what might as well have bee a blog entry after all that! LOL.

Anyway, the tower falling ont hose people and Jesus's response is something I have enver thought of in these terems. Yes, it is an odd answer indeed! True but nevertheless it is how he first chose to answer (assuming nothing else was said, that is, that wasn't recorded.)

Yes, it's people like Terry Shiavo and others for whom not just those immediately affected (like the miners' families) but interceeding Christians the world over, probably in the thousands, if not more, who even though they all prayed endlessly, in the end their prayers weren't answered as they were asking for anyway. And yet, the word says that if you have even a small bit of faith and are asking for something good then 'whatever' you ask will be granted. If it wasn't God's will then what's the point of even mentioning this in the Word in the first place...knowing that indeed we are feeble finte minded creations?!! I mean, the Bible 'was' written for us. I'm just wondering out loud here -- please don't feel any complusion here to answer if you don't care to or don't ahve time. (Maybe someone else will chip in later--that's one of the things I love about blogs--the opportunity to interact with others one would never have chance to otherwise.) It can be never ending trap, but one I get myself into at times.

Anyway, I love your 'teaching rocket scientist to a fly' analogy. That is really it in the end, isn't it? On the surface, it can seem that some of the promises in the Word don't really hold water when tried out but we can't begin to fathom how indeed it can both be true and yet seem here as not working as God can do a myriad of things so far beyong our imagination in the heavenly realm and here on Earth too later.

Take care, my online blogger, and thanks again.

-duncan

Stevie B dijo...

Duncan

I make myself laugh. I realized now that when I was answering your post, I originally only meant to post a link to an artice, which I wound up forgetting to do!

http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2005/144/24.0.html
is a link to an article written by the pastor that got electrocuted in the baptismal tank during service at his church in Texas. It covers this same topic, ironically or prophetically enough.

Peace out.

Stevie B dijo...

By the way.

I hardly perceive getting nasty comments on my blog as "persecution for righteousness' sake".

If that is the only type of persecution the Church in the West faces, and gets concerned about, then we are a bigger bunch of panzies than I usually say in my entries!

I don't know what *real* persecution is or feels like, I only read it in the lives of people elsewhere in the world being imprisoned, tortured, killed, ruled against, etc...

Sorry to get off topic.

Steve